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It is the year for that or so I hear...

I have decided to start over, which I am known to do at random moments during my existence however this time it is more of a starting over my blog, an overhaul maybe, a bloggerhaul?

I started writing this my senior year of college with this unwavering belief that from that moment on I would chronicle my dramatically exciting fun filled exploration into my newly found adult world. Sadly soon there after I realized there wasn't all too much exciting about paying bills, the 9 to 5 or other incarnations of such, and the drama surrounding relationships. Paying bills just is and it sucks that way, the 9 to 5 at some point takes on this glazed over, I'm tired of the monotony kinda view, and the relationships overtake all and that is just too much.

This space was created to be multifaceted and kinda fell into the mundane, boring, is this the same thing I just wrote last week which only creates writers block which I can have anywhere from one week to two years soo... moving on to the point.

I am starting over. Because sometimes change is good : )

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