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Ticket for One Please...

Tonight I am going to see a movie alone, I will ignore the implications of such, and continue on. I have never in my life gone to a movie theater alone. As an adolescent I was convinced I had Social Anxiety Disorder, disorders were a big thing then and now with everyone self diagnosing themselves; I actually learned the other day while riding the metro that I have Cyberchondria ...I like to use google to determine whether my symptoms, actual or alleged are in anyway related to an illness (which they typically are, because anything these days is a symptom)..cure for Cyberchondira ...stay the hell off Google. So this solo movie going that I am about to embark on, I think there is something changing in me, I would like to hope so anyway. There's all these things that I have wanted to do my entire life that I have backed away from doing because of what? Time, money, lack of company...but really no those reasons are not good enough so I'm off to a movie. Deciding between overly comm

Decent Out of Heaven

Writing a little more as the days go past: Decent Out of Heaven There’s all these little things that hurt me, I’m hurting. All these little things got me dying inside. I can feel my heart as it rips into pieces And each little piece that you’re taking with you. Going back and forth with myself in my mind Going back and forth with you all the time You make me wrong when I am so right Change the way I feel about the thoughts in my head You make me wrong when I am so right. So I’m fighting Was fighting to keep getting air The sun, and the wind, and the birds, and the trees, Was fighting to keep getting air. I want…and that doesn’t matter. Don’t know why but that doesn’t matter. I need…and that doesn’t matter I feel…and that doesn’t matter I hurt, and I cry, and I toss, and I turn I am chaos. In the midst of myself I turn to you. Chip away at me Have your way with me Laying cold and alone. Laying here in this dark. I am cold and alone Cold and alone I am chaos. **fIreFLY**

I Let You Down

Did a little writing...a very little. Lover lay down, Lay down with me and pray Prey on all these feelings which harken me to stay. Lover lay down, Lay down your arms and see, I will stray away from battle And surrender at your knee Lover lay down, Lay down your arms on me, Hold me and mold me Lead me Let you lead Lover lay down Fore’ I’m here at your side As the night turns to day Soft gray fades away Lover lay down Won’t you lay down with me?