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Decent Out of Heaven

Writing a little more as the days go past:

Decent Out of Heaven

There’s all these little things that hurt me,
I’m hurting.
All these little things got me dying inside.

I can feel my heart as it rips into pieces
And each little piece that you’re taking with you.

Going back and forth with myself in my mind
Going back and forth with you all the time
You make me wrong when I am so right
Change the way I feel about the thoughts in my head
You make me wrong when I am so right.

So I’m fighting
Was fighting to keep getting air
The sun, and the wind, and the birds, and the trees,
Was fighting to keep getting air.

I want…and that doesn’t matter.
Don’t know why but that doesn’t matter.
I need…and that doesn’t matter
I feel…and that doesn’t matter
I hurt, and I cry, and I toss, and I turn

I am chaos.
In the midst of myself I turn to you.
Chip away at me
Have your way with me
Laying cold and alone.
Laying here in this dark.

I am cold and alone
Cold and alone
I am chaos.

**fIreFLY**

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