The Life of a Premature Metro Goddess

Have you ever had to live pay check to pay check? I am and I don't even have a job...yah its that bad. So today marked the first day of my official on campus, paid job. Seeing as how I'm a senior I probably should have picked up this little past time, I dunno, 3 years ago. But here I am, student caller to the unprepared masses. Was I part of the unprepared masses. Was I unaware of the significant scholarship money they had set aside for me? Yea probably. Tomorrow marks the first of 40 days of Lent(spelling?). I've decided to forego sweets including soda, candy, icecream...unnecessary sugars pretty much. I've also decided to fast from being mean...ha I wonder how long that will last. And finally, I will abstain from any physical contact with the opposite sex... I actually threw this one in with the assumption that I won't have the opportunity or desire to physically interact with the opposite sex for quite some time anyway, thus adding this to my list is merely a met

Forgive me for running. Forgive me for leaving the scene of this crime. I'll call it that because I did something when I knew it was against this contract that we've made. Forgive me for abandoning all this time we've had. Forgive me because I want to fall in love with you. I'm saying I want to fall in love with you, and not I am falling in love with you because somehow I've managed to maintain enough control over my heart. That's the anomoly in this situation. I usually fall fast and hard and hurt when I shouldn't. And although I haven't this time and I can't, there are so many reasons why I should. You are so hard and isolated and oppositional, but somehow I've managed to accept your flaws. And then there are these moments, these brief fleeting moments where you become this shooting star. A beautiful celestial body that I can't take my eyes off of. In the midst of your flaws you are gifted beyond measure and for all those things I want to

Hey Lou, I meant to write you, I did once but that never seems like enough. There is so much going on here so much that changes everyday and I think maybe you left in time to let us know where we should go. Ma could be better but I think she's doing ok. Keep your eye on her, on us, because this is a trying world of tests and battles. Brian has a world of change ahead, I hope he makes it to where he should be, and if he strays a little just call his name, I think he'll listen for you. There was so much I meant to ask you, and I guess that is regret but regret is only the past hindering you in the present, or so I hear. How did you make that sweet potatoe pie? I tried and I feel like I almost had it but it will never be yours and I guess that's ok. How do you season a cast iron skillet, and why is it women don't know those things anymore. I guess you make me look past my feminism into those simplistic characteristics of the past. What was Granny like as a child. Was she q

Biting my nails.... It's a Friday night do you know where your life is? Mine is sitting in a chair staring past my laptop at the wall. Boring...Yes but this is the life of a PREMATURE metro goddess, I haven't hit complete active metro goddess status yet. Why am I sitting at home? I imagine the numerous things I could be getting myself into. Clubbing with Khep...He did invite me. Drinking with Ash...I'm too broke and she works in the morning. In His bed...And I mean that in a very not sexual kind of way. I'm going to refer to him as Him for the purposes of this little blogging space. He is exquisite but he doesn't know it. He is the guy that somewhere deep down I really want but I have maintained enough foresight to quell those thoughts; A great achievement considering his lips on mine and his hands all over me, but that's irrelevant until my head and my heart stop separating the two. To be cliche and film quoting He is "everything I never knew I always wa

What is a girl to do when she lays on the cusp of a new beginning? She takes her uninitiated adventures in a booming metro center and shares them for all the world. Currently I'm a melding of conflicting attributes anxious for all their ends to meet; a college senior in need of a job, shy and outspoken, "the whitest black girl I know" who's getting a little more Sistatude, and my favorite, the virginal innocent who's getting a little more naughty. For this 20 something its time to look towards the horizon, its the end of the vicarious and the beginning of me. I'm a 21 year old, black, feminist, gay ally, liberal, spiritual, daughter, sister, cousin, best friend. All I want is the world. I want to experience life in its fast paced, to the fullest, no inhibitions kinda way. This coming from the former shy, inhibited, uninformed, conservative, christian(?). So this is it, the record of my zeaolous, voltaic adventures. And don't we just love the word voltaic.